I'm Good at Excuses

So clearly I have not been writing lately.  Almost a month at this point which is really not good for you when you love writing as much as I do which I know a lot of you out there do.  I have been writing, but it's been for my roleplay sites which isn't a bad thing.  It's really good for socializing and it's also very good for character development.  So I won't knock it, but I haven't been focusing on my actual writing either which is the bad thing.

And I'm really good at making excuses for why I'm not writing or why I can put it off another day.  I'll even just sit there and kind of stare at a document sometimes and say well I can't think of anything so maybe I'll try again later.  And that is not the way that it is supposed to work when it comes to writing and I know that very well.  So I guess at this point there is no real excuse.  I have to stop doing this to myself.  I have to start sitting down and forcing myself to write unlike I have been.  Which means working on everything.  It'll help in  less than two weeks when Camp NaNoWriMo starts.  Of course I'll have to kick my butt into gear and write about ten times what I would normally write which is good for me because I think I need it.

I need to start looking at my writing more seriously.  I have the free time to do it these days.  That is what happens when you get laid off.  Not that I'm not still looking for a job.  I wouldn't be getting unemployment if I wasn't looking.  But when I'm not hunting there is no reason why I can't be writing or editing.  I have to get through my novels and start actually getting them ready for a point where I could reasonably publish them which is definitely something that I want.  It is a goal that I have never forgotten despite my failings in the area of my writing.

I am getting back into my writing though.  Just last night I decided to dust off an old idea and see if I could breath some new life into it.  I have actually been doing that quite a bit this year.  I am doing that for my Camp novel as well for the novel idea that I am developing for the Two Year Novel Course on FM Writers. So honesty I think that everything is working out really well.  Now the key is if I can keep the momentum or not.

Only a Few More Hours

We are a few hours away from the New Years.  Or at least I am.  And I'm excited.  A little nervous for it, but very excited.  I really need to be productive but I have been very lazy today.  I would be lying if I said that I haven't been.  It's not necessarily a bad thing.  I have a lot of writing that I have to do tomorrow.  And I am determined to get that writing done.

I'm excited for this year.  This year's goal is actually for me to write a million words.  I know it's a lot.  But I have faith in myself.  Especially with the fact that I did manage to get a little over a hundred thousand back in November.  I just basically have to go back to that pace.  And I know that I can keep it up.  Especially if I continue my enthusiasm.  That is the key honestly.  I usually don't.  I know that is my problem.  Thus knowing the problem I do have more of a chance to fix it.  I am certain of it.

And it will be good for me.  If I don't set myself a goal that I am uncertain of than I won't know if I could ever do it.  I guess that  is why I want to push myself so hard.  And I have a group that I'm a part of now that will be there to encourage me the whole way.  So I know that I can do it.  So I just have to keep trying.

I know it's a really short one, but I thought I should at least say hello this week.  Happy New Year's!